Monthly Archives: December 2011

Sitting here talking to Kyle at Cool Beans coffee outside of San Antonio. He’s applied to University of Colorado at Boulder for a PHD in psycholody. Added him as Facebook friend and sent him Christine as a suggested friend. He’s a nice guy and hope he’s happy. Met a lady who’s son died 2 weeks from suicide and she brought Trinity food and gave me $20 to buy her a blanket. bought one at Walgreens. She loves it. She’s also a really good fund raiser. Kyle had some friends come over and we just recorded this silly Walk Across America song. Sent it to You Tube. Well, trying to anyhow. Not sure why Im walking 50 miles north when Im suppose to be going east. Stopped by Pizza Hut and had wings. People have been interested now for some reason. A lot of nice people have stopped. I thinking it might be because of Trinity. I might get a ride up top Blanco since it’s directly north. The roads have been terribly awful. Lots of construction so Im literally in the lane with Trinity. There’s nothing else I can do. Police have driven by and their chill.

Kyle Leihsing at the coffee shop he works at.

Kyle and friends sing WALK ACROSS AMERICA (improv)

Trinity and I have found ourselves at a Starbucks in a suburb of San Antonio. It’s dark and its raining. We’re trying to stay dry. I just fed her. She seems to like the road and is doing well. Right now she’s outside the window curled up next to the back pack. She had her nails clipped by Lilli. I was a little nervous but it turned out fine. Taco was going to walk with us, but their Labrador got sick and he had no boots. Its been a good trip thus far from Del Rio. Met a famous actor and became friends. There’s a lot of good. I finally met the Gay Pride San Antonio crowd after talking to them 11 months ago. None of us knew if Id be here and it wasn’t planned. I know there’s a way to stay positive. I have to constantly train my mind and not fall. I get negative and don’t like it. I have a list of resentments quite long. But I am sure my list of gratitude is a lot longer. The river walk turened out nicely. I would guess 75 people showed up and 4 news stations. We got the word out. Very disappointed the print media didn’t show up. It’s strange. I have to do everything myself for them to get done. I was very disappointed in San Antonio’s mayor and staff. Not one phone call and no proclamation. Im hoping for better with Austion and Houston. Susan P was really awsome. Her daughter and son, their friends. They were all so helpful and it’s always hard to break away from the comfort of a hot meal and bed. There’s been so many and so many people have helped. I miss Alisha and the kids in Boulder. They were the very very best. I miss Aaron in Salt Lake City. I miss home and Los Angeles. Texas and the south is a little more than I can handle. San Antonio and this area does not feel like the United States. I feel like I am in Mexico but that’s ok. I don’t mistrust anyone. Well, the Occupiers down town, Yea. It was like the lower income 1% of the 99. That’s ok except everyone wears masks, wears black and constantly begging for cigarettes. I didn’t like it at all and am so glad to be away. ALTHOUGH there were certaily some interesting characters and humans being that they weren’t dismissed from my heart and mind. THEY HAVE A VOICE TOO. I have seen so many ranches. HUGE racnhes. This is really racnh land. I don’t know if I like what I am doing. I made this flier and it has the pledge contents on it. There’s so much more going on than a pledge, like the millions of trees lost from the beetle kill, 3rd world conditions and broken treaties with Native American Indians, over prices stuff at the markey like a 18$ piece of candy. People get breast cancer and have colds, there are auto accidents. I see so many things I don’t feel like I am being all I can be. I like the pledge but am seeing so much more than I knew. I had no way of knowing. I just didn’t and the people I talk to in the activist world Im not sure get it. I can’t always be a gay rights activist. I can only be a gay guy walking the Rainbow flag and experienceing America first hand in all its complexity. A lot of it comes down to PRIDE and PAIN. Everytown has them. AND every town has the BEST BURGER or whatever it may be. It’s small town pride that is unaware 300 miles away is another person and business claiming they are the best. They’re all the best. I havent heard a peep from Graham. I wish he would call or something. I have talked to Aaron seceral times and Bird in Utah. Misty on the Paiute I call once in awhile. It’s strange to visit people and watch their phone ring three or four times in a matter of a day. My phone rings once is a blue moon. The last time it rand was three days ago when someone checked to see how I was doing when the Occupiers were being evicted to some extent. Allie gets lots of attention carrying that Rickshaw but he appeals to the masses. Im not here about appealing the masses. Im just marching in protest and have to stay focused and stop comparing myself to him. He seems so excited and grateful. I was a lillte bit upset I never made it to a meeting to get a chip but the people I were with were more interested in doing what they wanted to do and didn’t take my sobriety as seriously as I do. Im glad to be moving on and start picking who I surround myself with. I can’t stand drugs and all the chaos they bring. It makes me worry. All these people smoke marijuana and make it sound so smooth and cover it all up with outside antics of hippieness. It’s not cool and I know better. I will go to many vegetarian and yoga places in Austin and keep myself on the spiritual fence.